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Saturday, April 22, 2006
dementia
the last trip to the dementia home.
when we left the ward, i wanted so badly to cry.
mr tang went sth like "you have to let go"
i dunno.
i just felt real bad.
i didnt pity the patients.
i just felt how meaningless they actually felt.
it was reali heartbreaking.
dementia basically made them lose something - somethign that i have always thought was the meaning of living. they forgot their memories of the past.
the memories of once being a child running around in their kampong.
they forgot the image of their families, their friends.
all they could do, was to lie to others - and perhaps to themselves - about their past.
robert was a fine gentleman of 50. he spoke fluent english. he was nice. but it was rather unbelievable that he had dementia. he thought he works there. so the staff didnt say no. they called him collegue. so sweet. :)
then there was this old lady who had a handbag with her all the time. she had this small cute puppy toy in her bag. she was skinny, rather "dao" look, only spoke cantonese.
then there was this old lady who spoke teochew with me. she said alot stuff to me and evelyn. she said that our parents are so luvky to have us two sisters. haha. like she knew us since we were young. she said we grew up alot. she talked about us having to study hard to not disapoint our parents....alot of stuff...
i also remember that i walked back to a female ward with an old lady. she was really weak and had to hold those metal support stands. when i had to help her to her chair, she felt to fragile to me. mr tang said i was sweating and grinned. sheesh. I WANTED TO DIE. luckily one of the juniors helped me.
it was activity time when we went. the folks were playing games. i was with ah huat. my favorite elderly! :) he was just fantastic. :))) maybe because he also speaks half hokkien half teoshew like me. :) hahah. we had fun. then he got really excited about my arrival he danced with me to the tune of emz. retro i think. hahah it was reali unforgettable. i will really miss him. i think i want to come back as a volunteer to visit him. perhaps buy him some hokkien mee or sth when i go.
but i feel really bad when i was with them.
we dont know when these people who had their memories erased from them would just die. because dementia is a disease. no. it wouldnt spread. but it can lead to other disease that will cause death to these people.
i dont want to lose my memories so cruelly too. i really dont.
i want to do a good dementia play. something really good. to be able to touch the hearts of others, like how the folks have touched mine. so that we can all make a difference to the dementia patients. help them.
well. since tests are gonna be over. my next plan shall be saving up at least 1 buck every day. then when i go to the dementia home myself again, i can buy some outside food for the folks. lina said we could. i want them to stay happy and enjoy the last journey in their life.
Add colours to your life!!
4/22/2006 12:31:00 PM
